So, today we will try to discover how these girls live and what consequences they have to bear because of becoming a cam girl. Upon interviewing a Pakistani cam girl, it was found that it is a full-time job, and you have to sit for hours in front of a webcam.
— Interviewer: How Do You Start Your Session Like?
— Interviewee
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Most of the time, I have to arrange a live web session. I start by saying hi, guys, and giving the hundreds of men a stare that I am watching every individual separately and intimately.
— Interviewer: So, do you keep the count of the viewers or not?
— Interviewee
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In the beginning, I count like it is 200, then 400, and then the count is way too high, and the comments are way too enormous. I just lose track. I used to work for one of the best cheap phone sex numbers, and it was easier to just focus on one person.
— Interviewer: Okay, so what kind of questions are you casually asked?
— Interviewee
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Often, the viewers in the comments ask me how my day was or where do I live. However, some may ask sort of personal questions as well, like are you single or not? But I try to be friendly with them without telling revealing my real identity.
— Interviewer: So, how did you get into this?
— Interviewee
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If I say that I got into this just for money, I would be lying; however, if I say that I came into this profession merely because of the pleasure, I would be lying then as well. I am the only child of my parents, who are no more in this world. Because of the poverty and loneliness I have experienced, I opted for this profession. Even though nobody accepts this profession as a reputable one, especially in Pakistan, I have to do my work. I have to earn myself bread and an engaging life; otherwise, this hunger and loneliness would kill me off.
— Interviewer: So, how do you earn from these camming sessions?
— Interviewee
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So, for the earning part, what happens whenever a viewer joins my cam session? If they are pleased with me or are relishing the session, they can tip me virtually. Yes, a virtual payment system exists. Whenever someone likes my video, they tip me. And guess what I often take up those viewers in the live session who are willing to pay up a lot. I follow this simple trick of making them the center of my attention. I usually tell them you guys are my favorite, and it is so nice talking to you, and guess what, they actually pay me up double. Moreover, the tips my viewers are offering are much more important to me than the number of viewers I have. The tip is all my bonus and gift, whatever you may call it.
— Interviewer: How was your life before joining this profession?
— Interviewee
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Frankly speaking, nobody knew who I was before I joined this profession. I mean, I was an ordinary girl, living my life in a slum, working as a maid, and I even had nothing to eat for days. So, I would just look up to everyone having a good life with their friends and family, having enough to eat and enough to wear or live. I used to admire everyone in those cars and malls, and I wished that one day hopefully, I would have a life like them. But, guess what? That actually never happened. Even though I have everything now but I do not have much. If I tell you honestly, I have money, branded wardrobes, and a spacious house to live in, but what most of them have is respect, and I do not have that! Which I will never have, I guess. I do not blame anyone for this, as I know what I am doing and where I come from. But, still, I do not have any choice. I believe so someday, everyone would try to understand what I am doing and why I am doing it.
— Interviewer: Okay, what hurts the most?
— Interviewee
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Everything hurts! The disrespect and the humiliation everything hurt like hell. So often, I visit malls, men who know me call me a prostitute and ridiculed me with offensive words. They think that I do not have any feelings, and I am a cam girl, so I am available to them constantly to play with them. Moreover, guess what? Even men are often there to label me and call me off names and mock me. However, this is a big shame for them also that they are there to watch my cam session, but the same people are ridiculing me in public. However, unfortunately, our society has no place for women if they sin. In contrast, they have a better place for men if they commit the same. Sigh! We do have a distorted society.
— Interviewer: Most of the obtrusive comments you have ever received?
— Interviewee
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I have always received hatred because of my religious obligations as a Muslim who tends to be a cam girl. Okay, people think that if a woman commits a sin or adultery, they are not allowed to perform religious rituals. Like if you are a prostitute, you do not have any right to stand in front of Allah. Who are they to decide whether I can pray to my God or not? Who are they to decide if I deserve a conversation with Allah? I think there is an intimate relationship between a worshipper and his God. Nobody has the right to interfere within. We are Muslims, and I know what I am doing, but, like offering prayers or fasting, that is none of anyone's business. So often, I hear comments that if she is a prostitute, why is she wearing a veil! God, that is none of anyone's damn business. It is my own will, and I am answerable myself to Allah for what I do. Moreover, you know I have received threats from the religious scholars that I am exploiting the generation and they would kill me off.
— Interviewer: I will ask you something really confidential if you want to answer, you can. Otherwise, you can skip it. So how did your first client approach you? How everything went on?
— Interviewee
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Yeah, I am comfortable as I am not going to reveal the identity. So, when I got to know about certain production houses that cast girls for giving webcam sessions. I went up to sign them, and by the way, I was only 20 years old. So, I went up to them, and they were willing to cast me and asked me to sign a contract. Also, the contact mentioned that what I am signing for is actually according to my own will. So, when I was done with the official agreement and documentation. So as soon as I went up the next day, I received a call from the production house whether you are willing to join a cam session or not, so I was like, yes, I am, and why not. Even though I felt really nervous, I had to do this as there was no other way around it. So, the time was fixed, and as the clock ticked, I felt scared and anxious, but I had to keep calm so as not to lose track. Finally, the client came in over the fixed time, our chit chat started, and while being flirtiest, we joked around. It is all too easy to become discouraged, especially when you are first starting. I am making the most money I have ever made in this profession right now. Still, I would not be here if I had not kept going, kept practicing, and built relationships with my viewers. I think I am just going to get better from here."
— Interviewer: So, people actually come up for sexual pleasure?
— Interviewee
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Well, honestly, I have been there for sexual intimate sessions just to give the viewers a seductive session so they can masturbate. But as soon as they are done, the session ends. However, often viewers demand me to talk to them friendly and listen to them. I got many regular clients who are happy with being heard and assured that they have someone to share their happenings with. I honestly appreciate such clients, and you know what, such clients pay me higher rates. Yes! Because they are deprived emotionally, and they want to overcome their emotional needs.
— Interviewer: How is life now? Are you happy?
— Interviewee
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Yes, it is good, and I am living to the fullest. Sometimes, I get threatened, and I feel like the world is getting down over me, but I have to gathered my pieces myself. After all, who else is going to do that for me? So, I have to be there for myself. I do know how a scandalous profession I am in, but I cannot help it.
— Interviewer: Are you thinking of leaving the profession any soon?
— Interviewee
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No, I am happy with where I am and what I do. People will mock you whatever you do. You can never satisfy anyone. But everyone understands you to the point they want to. I am making some good money while living a life I have always dreamt of. However, I miss the charms of everyday life, like going out on the streets for shopping or a walk, as I cannot cherish them anymore.
